I want to keep track of my ideas here because I lose my notebooks and I spend lost of time here

Feeling better today about certain things. It is amazing how much time I spend thinking about the futile the impossible the unimportant. The mind is a miraculous and 

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Living in a New Space

I am living in a new space now.  There will be things I say here that are not intended to offend anyone but they will be the truth to me.  I want to express who I have become or maybe who I have always been.  If you think you will be offended then please leave now.  Some parts will not be the feint of heart

Madame

If at first ya don't succeed get yourself up and try again try again. Love is a many splendored thing. and all of that, you only love once make it count... for something. Love to all Miss Troye

This lonely life......

trapped by... a crowd.... don't people feel the bump I felt that... I am not invisible but you might guess... I am it is like being underwater, everything in heavy slow motion you hear but you can't understand but you catch a word or two or three...maybe you are there but you are not seen or part of it it is like being there but only to be seen... as a  throw... a...way

Green is the color of peace
Blue tranquilty
Purple is passion
Yellow is not one of my favourite colours but I guess it is bright and sunny
Purple appears a lot in nature makes me wonder if it is one of God's favourite colours

I have forgotten

After today's sermon I had to do some long hard thinking. It is easy to be ungrateful and forget where you came from if you hang around long enough. I was putting away some dishes when I realized how different my life is now to the way it was 28 years ago. I was sad most of the time and burdened a lot. I had done so much I did not have much hope for my own future. Today I live a good life and I still forget to say "thank you Jesus for hearing me cry.... I used to sing this song: For those tears I died... I used to say to myself did you die for me too? Once upon a time I saw myself on the bottom step of humanity of course that was not true. I had challenges. Maybe not as bad as others have had but when you are low you do not see that. I have known lonely times, scary times hopeless times, fearful times. God heard and came to my rescue and still I have forgotten. Soften my heart so that I can help someone find salvation and courage they way someone helped me to find it in you I complain and it must be painful for God to hear. I have forgotten so much. His promises have been true for me and he has been more faithful than any man. Even when I have forgotten all of his blessings he does not take anything away but loves me still. Remember the Lord for he is good his loves endures forever. Best love Miss Troye